somewhere with light

After I have said those crap yesterday and now it's me again sitting in my office, typing madly with meaningless words again, trying to seek for some answer over the internet, over MSN, over peopel's blogs, looking out from the window, heat and sun light of this desert climate in SoCal, I'll be completely dried up in seconds if I ever set my foot on the side of the road near my office, who knows, me neither.....
Dad called the night before, asking me about my current office's status and my application.....no commands, don't wanna say anything, cuz I got nothing to say~ it's still SS and DD for the recent 3 years, only complishment I have over these years~ I graduated from CSUN~ yeah ~ bumber^^

B told me everyone like us before us would have this phase, uncertainty, insecured and wondering becuase of everything is in the air, on the thin ice, I'm no better than other people, guess I will walk through this myself again..... haha~ nice ~

Watching friends growing up, starting new business, having new family, having babies, good jobs, new careers, the whole fucking planet is spnning no matter what and I am still here working my ass off with some endless boring ass routine job with a cloudy foggy future right in front of me, sure it feels good.....just a bit of sour, that's all~

yeah, I'm good as usual~ walk away ~ You'll see me alive the next time you see me, it's always like that~ in my life, in the world~



CentaurD

Journey May 2K5

Still worry about my future status with my company, not that my boss isn't willing to sponsor me but the immigration would be in the way. Qouta is limited and too many ppl like me wanna squuze into this wander wonderland. I've been depressed for a while, long enough to kill most of my good brain cells and bottles of Zenex or whatever for the depression ppl. Anyhow I'm still here...hanging.....with friends, family and my love. What if becomes routine that always says in my mind that would bother me all night then drag me into nowhere during working hours.....fall to sleep around 7~8 p.m.then fully awake after 11 p.m. then staring at my ceiling till I see the dawn with morning breeze. Sounds like I am already getting there, huh? But what's the hold off? Take me to the dark side or whatever you or God wanna take me and I don't care....at least I don't know how to.....

Da picture can be very happy beginning of a trip or an ending of a human life,! What do we know? What do we care? You don't even know when is your Mom or Dad's birthday or Any aniversary, do you? What do you know, what if you would get hit by a car one morning while you're walking on the street hoping this is your another nice day out in the city? Hehehe, what if again.....

Depression? Paranoid? whatever~ hit me and hit me hard..... I will take it as my own experience and keep you guys updated~





peace

Venice Beach

I love LOMO LC-A, the good old camera~ It's cheap with real film, special unexpected colorful outcome, unique dark edge effect and b-shutter by skills~ hahahaha~ This is the second one I've been used and it works perfectly on any condition with any kinda lighting~

This pic was taken @ Venice Beach, CA. Not Italy~ It's a place that tourists, rollerblading nerd and cyclists would go during weekends. Me? I went there to check out new smoking device and new tats~ of course I took pics there as well~ It was fun day out with my lil cousin~

路過 Erinnerung 隨想

405 號公路上的Getty Center, Calilfornia only 的 In-N-out's Double Double和香脆的薯條, Melrose街上的形形色色, downtown L.A. 的 Union Station 和 L.A. County Jail......Lil' Tokyo, China Town, Thai Town, Little Saigon, Broadway Blvd. 上乞食的愛滋遊民, 都是一首歌、一個故事.....人生的插曲。

週末? everyday is weekend, ain't it?

親一累

免歹勢~ kiss kiss~

笑一個

hehehehehe~ don't worry, be happy~


人生就是這麼一回事兒~ 哈

HAPPY 420~

@)_@)~

no bugging~

Cheese, my roomate's young goldie~ very naughty and curious about anything he

encouters in his boring daily life.....took this shot while he came

back from the doggy day care of Pet Smart...I bet he must be exhausted

while playing qith other dogs all day~ hahahahaha

Sloppy's Polaroid Shots~

Sloppy, my brother~ reaching 14.5 years of age and still

hanging~    I got some good old polaroid camera with

films recently so I just tested it out with him last night~ fun fun

fun~

給一個人, 夏天

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夏天,
謝 謝你能夠不斷的丟出你的一些想法、思考的方向、其實你的這些東西在我心裡的沖擊很大, 我依稀記得從小到大對人、事、物的刻板印象都還存在著, 什麼東西該長什麼樣就是那個樣, 但經年累月每天所受/收到的知識和訊息卻慢慢的把這些給沖散了許多, 或許是我這個固執的腦袋裡仍然潛藏了些許逆來順受的基因, 反而在思想和創作上會摸棱兩可, 那也不置可否。

有些時候甚至懷疑自己原本的 動機已經消失, 而仍然不停的按下快門, 藉著喀嚓、喀嚓的聲音來舒解身心的疲憊和壓力, 亂槍打鳥嗎? 還是貪心不足? 天曉得.....但是我能夠確定的是我仍要求自我的進步, 開心的在這兒和擁有相同興趣的人們一起討論著大家都感興趣的話題, 分享生活的片斷和精彩的故事, 個自慢慢的成長, 互相學習, 應該沒有比這個還要來的開心吧?

不知道有沒有人和我有類似的感受? 但除了感謝之外, 也覺得我是幸運的, 認識這麼多朋友和好手、前輩, 讓我這個連ISO是什麼都還不曉得要怎麽解釋的人能夠慢慢往前走, 心裡很踏實、愉快。

你的照片玩味十足, 我常常得花上一段時間才能夠把上下文串起來, 很耐人尋味！ 與我的雜事記錄的方式實在差了好大段距離, 我得加油了....

L.A. The end of March